February 2012
10 posts
what has my life come to.
ive been sitting on my doorstep since about 3:20am it’s now 4am. the door is bolted so I can’t get in but my parents are asleep and I don’t want to wake them up. i crashed at a mates house, and at 3 this morning they thought it would be a good idea to the 24 hour macdonald in the next town along. by walking…. why are they so stupid.
I just want to go out clubbing with...
im so bad.
I’m such a bad son, my dad wanted to go out to his new house to help him put a fridge and stuff in, but i totally forgot and got the bus home instead. now i feel awful because he’s going to have to do it all on his own, I’m such a bad son. i should just piss off and I’m sure everyone would be happier…
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“everybody in life is a fucker. even the people you thought were not fuckers,...”
– moi.
i'm such a fuckwit.
i try to please everybody, don’t disagree with anybody, end up seeming like a bitch for not disagreeing with them when they bitch to me about people. i feel bad, i’m horrible to my real friends and try and get in the with the popular people. i’ve made so many fucked up decisions. i’m a fuckwit.
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well.
does anyone else feel bored of life? i dont particularly want to die, I’m just bored of the monotony of everyday, nothing great ever seems to happen only ever boring or bad things. i don’t see the point anymore. I’m just going to have to wait it out, see what happens. don’t worry, I’m not going to kill myself, just loath myself and the world for a while. lovely ending...
talking and writing.
the way we are changing to communicate with one another is starting to scare me, i fell like we as a race are loosing touch with our real emotions and lost sight of making us better as people. we no longer have some really strong relationships just many many weak ones. and it terrifies me to be honest. I’m just worried were going to loose that special thing that links us tougher as humans....
“follow your dreams until the very end, because you only get one shot at this.”
money.
I need *i would like* a new phone because mine is stuffed, but today I was thinking that maybe I should just be grateful for being happy and healthy and having food, shelter and clean water. so I am deciding to give the money I’ve saved up for a new phone to charity, probably UNICEF. be grateful not greedy.
January 2012
22 posts
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theres this girl.
this girl is the most amazing person i know. she’s funny smart and totally crazy. i think i might love her. she’s beautiful and i can’t help but smile when I’m around her. she is something special. but she aint ever gonna be mine. i just wish i could tell her. but i won’t. love, its a funny thing, aint it.
looking out for a friend.
looking out for a friend is difficult. sometimes they can’t see the truth they don’t want to know thats right in front of them. you may have to drag and pull them, but hopefully in time they’ll be grateful. i had to look out for a friend tonight, hugged her, told it would be alright and then kept contact to make sure she was ok. gave her space to breathe but kept close enough to...
what moving house does.
it kills your social life.
makes going out difficult.
ruins relationships.
pisses your pets off.
bumps up your transport costs.
is very expensive.
all in all ruins your life.
the moral of the story is: avoid feta cheese at all costs.
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birthday thoughts.
today is my birthday. i feel bad for growing older as its a privilege not everyone receives. I wish I could share the beauty and peace of life with people everywhere. I’m constantly thinking of all the wrong that’s going on in the world as I refuse to ignore and pretend they don’t exist as many of us seem to do. I want to stand for every individuals right and freedoms. yet I know...
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its like a mental massage.
horse riding to me is one of the only things that gets me through. its only half an hour a week but it’s half an hour where I can stop worrying about being insignificant in the universe or the starving children in africa, or the forced surrogates in India or the exploitation of young women. its just me and the horse, my parents can’t really afford it and it makes me feel awful, but I...
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friendship.
one of my closest friends kept repeatedly hitting me in the face with some tin foil just because i asked him to pick up the bits he’d dropped on the floor. i asked him to stop but he wouldn’t, so i sort of tried to kick him in the balls, twice. then he hit my face again so i kicked him again then he kicked my back. i wasn’t to upset about it just a bit annoyed. i avoided him all...
the rise of hell.
i hate mornings they are like being repeatedly stabbed in the face with light and sound. i only just managed to stay awake in the shower today. i also fell rather than got out of bed. grr, and just to catch the bus to shitty school. with mainly shit people and mainly shit teachers.
once again.
once again I don’t think anybody is reading my blog, I am yet for someone to even accidentally stumble across my this and then realise this is not very good and leave. thanks boo bears. which is no one. because no one is reading this. ever.
fire burns.
im just sitting in front of the fire at home and thinking about how destructive and dangerous it is. yet we as humans have manage to harness it and use it to our advantage. in just waiting for the day when we can no longer control the world around us and our species comes to a sudden and unwilling end. keep thinking happy thoughts everyone.
life is too short to waste time hating people.
don’t waste time hating people, you’ve not got long so make the most of being yourself and enjoying your body and the people you love. share the love. with everybody. okay well your thinking “but that bitch just bought the last tub of ben and jerrys” hating her isn’t going to make her feel worse or you feel better. (i understand you pain though) . love yourself your...
anywhere.
is there anywhere i can see how many people look at my blog?
several directions.
my life has no direction. I’m stuck in the british education system (I’m sure many people would love to be) but i don’t. i wanna be free to see and explore the world before my time runs out. damnnn gurlll.
the king of the lions.
the lion king.
(500) days of summer.
the boys are back.
where the wild things are.
team america.
watership down.
my list of favourite films. in no particular order.
Life is never easy. But I will do my most to take...
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“the secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry...”
– Buddah.
i now realise.
no body has read this, and it only exists in a tiny corner of the internet that nobody cares about. but hey, I’m still gonna keep posting stuff!
A very common misconception.
people say that your ‘school years are the best of your life, well i hope they’re lying because this is shit. school has a very clever way of draining the pure life out of you body and then to top it off they ask you to do a focus group and ofsted inspections where you lie about how great it is, and pupil involvement. i lie. through my teeth. to everyone. about school. well, on the up...
